Comics & Zines, Thoughts

2020

Today (January 4, 2021) would have marked four years of drawing everyday (started January 4, 2017). My daily routine struggled and failed to survive the disruption that was 2020, but we’ll get to that. Here are some personal highlights from the year, and if you’d like to you can also see my 2019 recap.

January 14:

An ‘about me’ from my 19 year old self. Seems like not much has changed on the likes/dislikes front, and at some point I retook the Myers-Briggs test and leaned more towards INFJ instead of my long-standing INTJ result.

Also while I’m writing this recap I was like ‘folktronica?’ but upon further consideration I think it’s just because I was trying to find the genre for Cosmo Sheldrake hah.

February 4:

I turned 20! I received a few gifts and spent the morning going to a bookstore to get a t-shirt, then had to go to history and ‘connections’ class. Spent the night alone with some pie.

I’m turning 21 in a month, but with everything going on it doesn’t change much. I feel like the pandemic has expedited the process of birthdays not feeling important anymore, at least for now. 21 is maybe the last of the legally important birthdays (except retirement age? but that’s a while away), though I have never cared about drinking so I am not eager to do that anyway.

February 15:

The first time I managed to go to Manhattan in 2020 was February 15th. Mother wanted me to get some ‘professional clothes’ in case I got any internship interviews (spoiler alert, I didn’t, but now I have some nice new clothes sitting in a storage unit). Saw the Oculus (apparently spelt that wrong) for the first time, and accidentally found Trinity Church and walked through the cemetery. Man I love history.

Later that day went to a movie with my then-suitemate and tried brown sugar milk boba, pretty good (held it with a gloved hand since it was so cold outside).

Ended February on the 29th with my last trip to Manhattan. It was for a design class site visit where we impersonated transfer students, then got some food and saw a very fancy dog store.

March 2:

The talk of coronavirus started pretty early in design class, with my professor predicting that we wouldn’t be able to come into studio anymore.

March 9:

Had a lot of anticipation and uneasiness with the growing talk about the virus and schools beginning to announce closures. It felt like dark clouds were gathering and waiting to pour.

March 11:

And I didn’t have to wait long. During class on a Wednesday we received the fateful email that we’d be starting online classes after an extended spring break.

March 12:

My approach to surviving the physical and mental stress of March 11th-March 14th was not thinking, just doing. Despite Res Life saying that they were expecting us to come back in April, my mom made me pack everything up in my dorm by myself and lug it two blocks to a storage unit. I had a lot of recently acquired large objects to suffer through transporting via a broken cart (air conditioner, 3D printer, microwave, large box of materials, several portfolios). It took two days to put everything in the storage unit.

The last night in New York I didn’t have anything of substance to eat (or any silverware to eat it with) so I went to Key Foods in search of a cup of ramen. Outside I overheard a lady on the phone saying ‘yeah surprisingly they still have toilet paper’- the beginning of that whole ordeal. I go inside and it’s the longest I’ve ever seen the line. The ramen wasn’t worth it at that point especially to spend so much time around people. This was before masks were advised to wear so this memory is especially weird for me to think back on. I spent that night eating yogurt for dinner (was originally saving it for breakfast) and sleeping on an empty bed with 2 pillows I would leave behind to be thrown away in the case I didn’t return. I put a post it note on my desk listing the few objects I left behind alongside a sewing needle that didn’t belong to me.

I went home on March 14th. The airport terminal was very empty, masks weren’t being worn yet and it’s not like you could buy any even if you wanted to. I wore plastic gloves on the trains and wrapped a scarf around my nose and mouth, still somewhat afraid I would look like I was overreacting (seeing a few other people also wear gloves was reassuring though). It was surreal landing in NC where everyone was business as usual while I felt radioactive.

April 4:

I survived late March/early April by playing Breath of the Wild and Animal Crossing New Horizons in my free time. I also started watching a few Twitch streamers, since there is a comfort is having someone talking in real time in the background. Gardening was another way I found to pass the time and also force myself to go outside while the majority of my time was spent staring at a Zoom or Google Meet window.

I also found comfort in rewatching television shows (especially anime that I last saw in middle school hah), listening to podcasts or songs, and singing along to musicals. I did all of that while working on my design final, which was on the 30th of April.

May 25:

The majority of May was spent in my room trying to fill time. I can tell that it was rough for me to stick with drawing everyday when everyday felt the same. I started an online summer class just so I wouldn’t have to take it in the fall, and revisited a really old comic idea to see if I could breathe some life into it.

June 26:

My brother had to go back to Pittsburgh so he could continue his graduate school studies (he’d been unexpectedly home since his March spring break), and after we dropped him off we swung by my storage unit in New York to retrieve items I wasn’t originally able to bring home. Spent less than 24 hours in either place and barely stopped the entire trip, very exhausting.

The unfortunate thing is that the morning that we were driving to New York was the when the school sent an email saying that dorms were going to open in the fall (which turned out to be false) so I took things from my storage unit that I didn’t need anymore for school (like old models, my drafting board, vellum) while not taking any additional clothes, oops.

July 31:

I successfully drew everyday from January to June 30th. And then July… yeah that didn’t happen. I made this on July 31st as a recap and an attempt to start it up again, which was successful for August.

The garden was pretty fruitful and I helped my parents retile and plaster the pool. I rescued some toad eggs, which turned into tadpoles and then small toads I got to release. I meant to write about them on this blog and include more photos but ended up writing a small article about them for the school newspaper because they matched the ‘Transition’ theme.

I think dorms were announced to be closed for the fall semester around this time too, which gave me a whole lot of mixed feelings.

I also made my 2nd Year of Architecture School Zine so I was occupied drawing that.

August 8:

August was a month for a lot of thinking. I’m a to-do list maker but with the future being so uncertain it’s hard to plan very far ahead.

August 21:

I was part of orientation staff for the week before my virtual fall semester started. It was a cool experience (though of course it would have more fun if it was during normal circumstances and we could be together physically) and I’d enjoy doing it again. I enjoyed meeting and getting to hear the thoughts of the incoming class who had to decide on a college largely without even visiting it beforehand.

Also that week I went to visit my friend at her new apartment where she was living by herself so it was the safest opportunity to see her in person. It was really great to see her again even if it wasn’t for long.

September 12:

Drawing everyday did not survive September, when I really started working on my online classes. Brain was mostly in ‘just do your assignments’ mode in which I just wanted time to pass so I could get closer to future semesters where we could be in person again.

Also in September I released a lot of the toads I had raised.

October 19:

I drew only a few times in October. Things were kind of rough before the pandemic, just the stress of school and 17-18 credit hours a semester, but then having classes completely online (which has pros and cons) and the world being rocked politically, environmentally, and with the pandemic it has been a lot to handle. I’m privileged and things could always be a lot worse but I hope my life is such that these times will be something that I learn a lot from but not something I ever ‘miss’, if that makes sense. I hope things get better.

November 7:

The days leading up to the election results were very nerve-racking, refreshing that map over and over. When it was clear that Biden had won, I figured hey, there’s a timeline where he didn’t win and things could be perhaps much worse. I wish I could feel more relieved but a new president is just the start to (hopefully positive) change, not a solution.

November 21:

I drew about 20 days of November but I got swept away with finals. This is one of the last drawings I made this year digitally. Finals were rough and unhealthily consumed all of my time but I made it through and I’m very proud of the work I was able to accomplish especially alongside my design partner.

I think the roughest part of the online environment is that there is not much room for casual conversation. No chit chatting before lecture or running into people in the hall or on the elevator, no casual runs to go get food with someone else. I’m thankful for my design partner who I got to talk to the most often, both about our classwork and about life in general, even though we were confined to our little Zoom rectangles.

Otherwise I sat alone in my room for the entire semester, only talking to my parents for a couple minutes a day at dinner.

December 15:

In December it was obvious that something needed to change, at least for a bit, so I found an old empty sketchbook on the 9th and scribbled in it with whatever pens were laying around and kept doing so for a while. Most of my pages are incoherent doodles alongside thoughts and to do lists but it’s been a nice change to draw beyond what I used to do digitally.

Winter break has been very restful and I’ve started crocheting a scarf. Compared to my attempts at embroidery, making something functional in 3D is pretty rewarding. I’d been wanting to start assembling a dollhouse during this break but for the moment it feels overwhelming. Otherwise I’ve been playing a lot of Minecraft with friends and need to work on finding something to do this summer.

So this was a lil personal reflection of my year. 2021 won’t magically fix our problems but I’m hopeful that things can start to swing back into the right direction.

I hope you’re staying safe and best of luck in the new year!

Comics & Zines

Second Year of Architecture School: A Zine

Hello again! This is a short zine to encapsulate my second year of architecture school. It’s optional but if you’d like to read in order, here is my 2019 First Year of Architecture School zine, and prior to that I tested the waters with my 2018 Senior Year (of high school) zine. Following this 2020 zine will be some reflection on my process and the school year in general.

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Here are some thoughts on the zine and my improvement from my previous zines:

  • As compared to my previous years, this zine was drawn roughly on paper, scanned, drawn panel by panel on firealpaca (free drawing software I’ve used since 2017), then imported onto adobe indesign (wow fancy, thanks college for ‘free’ adobe products). I think it’s easier to have ideas flow kind of messily on paper and then reorganize digitally. I also like the crisp panels made in indesign.
  • I maintained the color scheme and drawing style of the first year zine just for continuity sake. Except I changed the eyes from dots to lines and the color shade is a bit different because I am ~adventurous~ and take risks (wow).
  • Maybe it’s just because I stare at it for too long, but even though I know my lettering is getting better I still feel like it varies a lot in spacing or size which looks sorta weird. As an experiment I made a font from my handwriting but I think that isn’t great since some letters flow differently when next to each other which doesn’t happen in the font, so everything is lettered individually.
  • The cover this time is also consistent with my first year zine, though I think I like the first year pose better, it’s more dynamic. I am standing in front of my fall 2019 final pin-up (because the spring 2020 final was online as you are aware).

Second year had unique challenges as compared to first year. I think part of it is that of course more is expected of you, but we are still very new and are learning a lot (at least I feel that way).

My summer class has gone well! I am also part of the orientation staff for this year’s upcoming freshmen, though it’s going to be severely altered due to the current pandemic. Also still keeping up with my animal crossing island daily- hit me up if you want to be friends, I only have one at the moment!

The current struggle is figuring out whether or not it is worth it to return to campus since all of my instruction will likely be online and then I will *maybe* have part of my design class in person. I am also from a state that it is necessary to quarantine for 2 weeks upon arrival, but if they don’t let me quarantine in the dorm I have no where to stay. At the moment it sounds like they aren’t going to let us quarantine in the dorms, we need to do it somewhere in New York before coming to campus. Makes me so frustrated. It’s a whole mess.

I know my ability to focus is worse at home, I’ve also grown weary of my housemates (read: parents), and I am looking forward to seeing my new roommate again, however in reality I’d be stuck in half of a dorm room for most of the time (since the social contract is saying we are only allowed to leave for groceries), and if I do get sick I will be forcibly removed from my dorm and relocated, and thus be all alone. And who knows if I will have my campus job again or not, since printing isn’t really necessary when everything is virtual. Not sure what to do. I am somewhat thankful though that my degree is 5 years long so I hopefully will have more time to explore the city and everything again someday.

Uncertainties aside, I hope you have enjoyed and thanks for reading! Stay safe out there.

Let me know what you think in the comments or on instagram (@ elclapp)!

Comics & Zines, Thoughts

2019

Today (January 4th, 2020) marks the third year of drawing everyday (Started January 4th, 2017). At some point I’ll look back at the grand scheme of things but for now let us gaze upon the past year. Also behold my inconsistent art style.

January 13th:

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An ‘about me’ back when I was 18. I think these still hold true, though I am curious about the high ranking of waffles and the oddly specific ‘strangers in the dark’.

February 4:

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I turn 20 in a month which is weird, but so was turning 19 (I think mostly because 18 is such an important age but 19 is just like eh, you are still an ‘adult’ but not completely. 20 might kind of be the same though it means I’m not a teenager anymore).

February 26:

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On February 26th, I got to meet Lucy Knisley at her ‘Kid Gloves’ book signing at Books Are Magic. She definitely has one of my dream jobs. If I accomplish nothing else in life I would like to write books, whether it be graphic novels, poetry, fiction, nonfiction, or all of them. But I cannot help but wonder what it will take to get there.

March 5:

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If you cut back to me as a senior in high school I thought that everything would fall into place once I went to college and I don’t think that will ever be the truth. I overthink as much as ever, if not more.

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Spring Break! Hung out with friends a few times, enjoyed being back home for a mid-semester pick-me-up.

March 23:

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Back to school. Welcome to the common theme of trying to ‘take the day off’ aka working but just not on design. Also got the opportunity to see Chicago on Broadway. I originally didn’t win the school lottery but luckily got the last unclaimed ticket.

April 6:

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Went to MOCCA fest (a comic fest)! Got to meet Fran Meneses (frannerd) at her booth and bought a few of her books. Also saw the folks from Drawfee who I used to watch probably back in middle school or early high school and didn’t know they were going to be there so it was a pleasant surprise. Then went to Hudson Yards for the first time to see the giant Wasp Nest (Vessel), couldn’t go inside of it though.

April 19:

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April 23:

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There’s always a point in the semester where I am not taking great care of myself.

April 30:

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Went to the American Museum of Natural History for the first time as a subject for my final English essay (writing about how museums and statues can influence what version of history we learn). I saw a diorama that was on the cover of The Authentic Animal (a book on taxidermy) and it was kind of surreal because I had only ever seen it as a photo and didn’t know what museum it was in. Need to go back there sometime.

May 6:

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Best day of finals week was the picnic I had with my design studio.

May 12:

may1219 (2).png Moved out of my dorm and put everything in a storage unit. Rainy day but not too bad. Thankful for my parents driving all the way up so we could utilize the car, but of course that means we had to drive all the way back the 11 or so hours.

May 22:

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Went to the beach for the first time since elementary school or something. I love being tall so I can go far out and let the waves hit me, but I don’t like being responsible for the car keys and having sand everywhere.

May 27:

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Hanging out with friends is the best part of summer.

June 8:

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Went to Greenville Repticon with friends and brother! Saw so many good turtles and tortoises.

June 15:

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Went to Carowinds for the first time since 7th grade with my family. I think roller coasters are cool… but I do not like them.

July 2:

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Had a nice trip to Asheville with a few friends in early July. Went tubing in a river for the first time, got sunburned but had a lot of fun.

July 14:

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Finished my first year of architecture school zine, pretty happy with how it came out.

July 22:

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Spent around 5 days in Pittsburgh, moving brother into his new apartment. Also did a few touristy things, mom got a flat tire, and drove a lot to get home at around 2am.

July 29:

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Avoided my summer camp counseling responsibility for a day by going to the beach with a few more friends again (this time I didn’t have to drive ha).

August 2:

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Last day of helping at my mom’s lego robotics summer camp! It is the last camp after 7 years (about 5 years of me helping for two weeks each summer).

August 10:

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Went to another Repticon with friends! This time there was a venomous section which was interesting.

August 18:

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At the end of August I helped a friend move in and saw her college for the first time, then packed up myself. Went back to school a week early to help with the upperclassmen move-in, which allowed me more time to slowly move everything back from the storage unit.

August 26:

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Had my first day of work and first day of class, had no time to eat until about 6pm. Kind of a rough start.

September 14:

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Went to the Met for a history assignment. I always beat myself up for doing ‘fun’ things.

September 21:

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Went and saw Wicked! Won the school lottery for it, thought it was a cool backstory for the Wizard of Oz. Had several songs stuck in my head for a while and I’m a fan of scene changes. I just remember September as a pretty long month of getting back into the swing of school.

October 12:

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Went to Washington Square Park for the first time, and popped by the site for the design project.

October 25:

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Watched the first part of the last season of Bojack. Kind of had a rough (unrelated) time.

October 31:

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Didn’t really do anything for Halloween. Maybe one day holidays that happen on school days like this will feel fun again. Mostly just worked in my room.

November 2:

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Did ‘huevember’ so that’s why November is all colorful. Went to CAB (Comic Arts Brooklyn), saw a talk with a few people like Chris Ware and Art Spiegelman (these are a few excerpts from their talk), and walked around the tables. Wrote about it a bit in here.

November 16:

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Went to Storm King. Probably my favorite trip this semester. This title may seem familiar, and you can read a bit about my visit in that blog post.

November 25:

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Also in November: went to the MoMA with my history class which was interesting since it recently reopened. Also went home for Thanksgiving (was only there really for two days) at the end of the month. Kinda sucked because all of the design final stuff was due at 9pm the Sunday at the end of break so came back to work.

December 4:

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I survived my third college finals season. Got all As and Bs *thumbs up emoji*

December 7:

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Meanwhile, I am not sure why, but after most of a life depraved of miniature things I have had the increasing desire to make a dollhouse and decorate the inside. We have a few miniature building kits that my parents promised we would make when I was a small child but perhaps I need to take the initiative. At any rate, visited the only dollhouse store I could find near me and it was really cool (though a bit out of my price range at the moment) and got a signed Book of Mini. Wherein I discover the existence of the 68 Thorne Rooms in Chicago and that there is a ‘keeper’ who gets to maintain them and decorate for the holidays…. another dream job.

December 20:

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Traveled home! The beginning of winter break consisted of lengthy Terraria sessions with my brother since we hadn’t been able to play games together for quite some time. Christmas and New Years Eve were just small celebrations with my family. I have about 2 weeks left before I go back for my fourth semester, so we’ll see how that goes. I’ve been working on and just finished shingling a miniature 1:12 scale barn for no particular reason (I don’t own horses in the right scale or necessarily have a desire to furnish the inside yet, maybe constructed it as a warm up for an actual house).

Thanks for sticking out 2019 with me. We’ll see if I blog more this year, let me know if there is anything you want see :0

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Comics & Zines

First Year of Architecture School: A Zine

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A lil zine to encapsulate my first year of architecture school. Obviously didn’t go full in detail about my assignments and that kind of thing but it’s kind of a general overview of my thoughts and feelings towards the campus, food, my dorm, the city, etc… I experienced so much! It’s hard to remember things that weren’t normal to me but grew to be normal.

If you want to know what I did on a weekly basis, I did successfully post every Sunday night during the school year on my instagram (@elclapp) just to give a lil update. Still deciding on whether or not to do it again this year? It was a nice weekly personal reflection but I feel like I’m feeding into that toxic social media culture.

Here are some thoughts on the zine and my improvement from my 2018 ‘Senior Year’ zine:

  • One major difference is that the Senior Year zine was drawn over the course of the last part of the school year and post-graduation, while this one was drawn completely in the summer. This might have helped it look more consistent (but even then I started drawing in May, took a break, and finished in July). Also, drew a draft of the Senior Year one on paper, then drew over it digitally, whereas this one I just jumped in digitally.
  • I definitely like the limited color palette more than what I had going on last year with various bright colors, and I think that my art style is a bit more consistent with the simple cartoon and stick figure combo, though I’m still playing around with my art style as it comes to eyes and noses… I like drawing squiggly or triangle noses but for the sake of easiness I went with just a line. I like eyes with a pupil, but dot eyes are much easier to get looking the same (see my zine from last year for what I’m talking about… those eyes are all over the place). Don’t get me started on full bodies and hands… I don’t know what I’m doing (cough, one reason I wish arch students had foundation year)
  • I’m still working on my lettering. Typing all the text would probably save me a lot of time but I like the more personable feel of lettering. For a few places I wrote on top of text just so the spacing, size, and angle were consistent. Other places I got impatient (like the middle pages) and just wrote, which makes it a bit more sloppy. Rereading I found a few inconsistencies with my uppercase ‘I’s. Hopefully it is all legible though.
  • The cover! I really like how this cover turned out. I’m slowly creeping out of my comfort zone of static poses. Also really like the contrast of the colored photo background and my drawing, reminds me of like a graphic novel or something?? Idk I just like it. I’m standing in front of my second semester design final in my typical presentation outfit.

I hope you have enjoyed this lil thing I made, and thanks for reading this far! Can’t believe I only have about a month left of summer….

Let me know what you think in the comments or on instagram : o